hello.

I think i'm awesomely back on blog , since i've deleted my facebook account . Wait , i did not delete it , I deactivate it  . I think i won't be using facebook anymore , since it will be no longer useful to me now . Seriously . I guess this is the first step that I will be taking , for now . i just need a change . Sighs .


What happened to me ? well .. I'm not sure . I don't even know what state am i in . Confusion . Ya allah please help me . The most huge enormous question that stucked in my head these few days is , 'What will i be when i grow up ?? ' its not like as in , 'What will i work as when i grow up ?" .. it is more to a ' What state will i be in the future ? a brat ? or someone who is religious ? ' . oh allah . please guide me to the right path . i'm in desparate need .

This month i've been doing a lot of crying . Allah is testing me . Ya allah kuatkan la iman aku . OMA , this year i'm super sensitive . i may smile , but i'm always crying . ya allah , forgive Our sins . amin



love ,
zee

hello .

Long winded .

I love .

BOO !
 

heyhey . its me agaaaaain . zee . today is sunday and i have nothing to do , seriously .
i want to tell something ! i think i will be happy again and as fun as ever ! lol . why ? cause i've found new ONE . hahah . k  shdp.

so yesterday , was rusyidah's birthday , and of coz , party is a must !
er .. pictures ? my hp is malfunctioning ;(


after the small , princessy , pinky party , me and the angklunites had to go angklung . Angklung was as per usual , GREAT ! hah . especially a song called , Zapin Beradat . it feels like Jumping !

oh yes , we, angklunites has been Busy , cause next saturday , we have a performance , at( IDK where exactly , it was organized .) . The performance is due to the 'Bulan Bahasa' thingy . And this event is due to the Anugerah Guru Melayu .. something like that . and so we have to perform some traditional songs , and one of them is the Zapin Beradat song which i have just mentioned earlier . hah ! i'm extra-excited for this one cuz .. hey ? we angklunites has never ever played a traditional song ! okay . done from the angklung thing .

next that i want to touch on is about school . School has been , ermm . OKAY , i should say . except for some , problems , that i shall not elaborate it here . bleargh .

Life ? life has been SSUUUPER GREAAT ! huahuahua . why ? i . don't know ..*sacarsm* lol . love ? MUCH better ! muah .

okay thats all bout it for today . muah reaaaders , bye !


p/s : i love you .

hello .



Moving on .

Trying to deny messages that came in .

Shut Up .


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so . hey .

currently at home . sitting . staring at the computer .
Tommorow , the day that will determine my fate(?) haha !
UGHH ! results will be out tommorow . what i'm saying is , my Mid year exam's resluts .
i am damn , very and extremely scared and nervous . why ? cuz like i said , i recieved unsatisfiying marks !
=.= ya allah , i hope i pass . make me pass , i;m begging . i want to pass ! psh . please . gotta start to buck up and start my revisions as soon as possible . i have to start by the third week of holiday . oh my . not enough , i have to go holidays , i'm running out of time ! i need time .

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yay ! i love me . i love me . i love mee goreng ! .
okay lame.
  


Once upon a time , 
there is a princess and a princess , named Zefiora and Zulian .haha ! XD 


hahah ! XD

hello.

 Today , has been great . well , not great actually . Did not go to school . and has got nothing to do at home . right . hanging out ? neh . not the type of person . Watched a korean Drama -My Girl . best ! but the parts suddenly stopped uploading halfway , and i failed to watch the whole drama . pffft . so here i am , writing an entry . 









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832839417. no sape uh ? it popped up on my phone's screen . signalling that there's a message came in. pfft . asking wierd questions . ugh . so wtv . 


 tommorow - eh almk ! amirah , nisa and zubs goin Japan ! hahah , oma , take care guys . dont forget me ! haha . ka dah tu je bye .

i hate you ,


i wish you know . i wish you know what's inside here .
i wonder why , i wonder how could you do this to me .
i need you , i need a hug .
i need a peck on my forehead , and i'm gonna be fine .

dear bestfriend , i want to meet you now . where are you ? where are you ?
oh you're asleep , wake up , dear . wakeup . i need you now .
 i woke you up just wanna tell you that i love you .

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hey . see that passage(?) up there ? yea . no copyrights yea . haha for someone who declares him/herself as my bestfriend . bleargh .
so today , i felt extremely bored in school . Recieved unsatisfied marks , heck . i hate school . plus exams . psh . but , what should i  do ? go with the flow . get my sit heat up for such looong hours . until my butt hurts . still , it doesnt change the situation at all .i hate school . pffft .

i love people in school . especially******** . hee ^^ . and all my friends in class . bleargh . ohh . and also teachers .

i love home . home is the place for me to rest . i love nights . nights is the moment where i get HYPERACTIVE . haha . I love anything and everything .

so bye ! i'm sleepy .


p/s : i love amirah bte sanusi and **** ******** .

LALA . hah . hello peeps .



well . actually . i . don't . know . whatta . say . pfft .



" i said i don't want an another half but i need a full one , to combine with my heart , understand my feelings and live the life . I want an another half , but i want to do anything i want . and i shall let you do anything you want '

heish .



i think i fell in love , i miss him just like -so .

i'mma break down , and shatter into tears .


i think i'm goin eemo .

gosh , i'm a freak to these kind of things . i can't stand on my own legs . i have no concrete backbones to hold me up . i need help . SOS !










psst . 50 bucks gone , given  to loved one . . *what a lame statement i've just made*
oh . heh . ust A . i've just figured out tht he's too cute when he is sick . haha . seriousity . espicially when he said " naa-'am " haha. ust ku cute peh . heh . even someone from 2/1 agrees . lol .

oh so yeah , currently i'm inlove with my own bestfriend *you know i know ! haha * , shhesh .
BORED ? join the club uh . hah ,


oh haa ! i almost forgot that today is the-most-binget day . there's this one guy in the mrt , sitting right beside me . Then suddenly , i felt something that bothered my shoulder . PSSST . it was tht guy's head , leaning on my shoulder like nobody's business . and guess what ! he WASN'T asleep . pfft~ . so pissed off that i made him shock (yay) . I quickly stand up from my sit and gave him a sharp stare . then he made this face of " sorry+puppy eyes" . pshh ! . who the hell do you think you are ? leaning on my shoulder as if i'm one-free-pillow to lean on . for goodness sake seh . oh it goes like this :

me : eh ! i'm a girl , and you know i have respect for ya !
the guy : i'm soooory .
me : you better be ! *i almost punched him*
theguy : SORRY ! (i saw tears, gagahaha)



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gahs . hello .



finally , i can fit  myself into some comfy area at the corner of the house . hmm .


okay . as exams will be right-round the corner , i will also have to take the step . The step to back out and buck up . back out from the computer and buck up on my studies . yessssssss , i know , i know my words just cnt be taken seriously . but , i WANT to try okayy . heish .

pray for me people !



so yeah , yesterday an incident happened , wont elaborate . bla bla . today , nothing happened except for we , the whole secondary and pre-u level , got released from school earlier . 'Cuz the teachers are having their learning journey . yay ! heh . nothing to be happy about . okay so i think i'm done for this entry . bleargh !

heys .

hmm . okay recently , i dont know what is wrong with me in particular . but . i'm being a stress-took-over girl i guess . hish . i just hate it . innocent people got scolded by me , i'm just ... harsh to myself . 

okay . thts it . whats here , ends here . so dont Drag .

Today .

recieved an urgent call from UstzhF yesterday, requesting me to inform the SecTwos in the ensemble that TODAY , we must perform at Muis for their biggest and most important meeting . so yeah , yesterday , did our emergency training for the performance . gedebak-gedebuk . habes jugak . yay ! oh ya so today , the performance was perrrrfecto . haha . most clean-كما قال cekgu dzull . phew . accept that i must still learn how to smile on stage . lol . i'm LAACKK of smiling when on the stage and all eyes glued on the ensemble . wooh . oky , initially , i hve no big problem when it comes to the stage , but with smiling ? nope . not for me .i have a huuuge problem when it comes to smile . nehh no matter wherever i stand , i won't smile. not that i don't want , i just ... can't . you know .. i can't .  hahahah . 

haha . a very tiring day . wokeup in the morning just like going to school . 7.30 must reach the auditorium . heck , i did not manage to come on time ! hah . well . what to do ? sorry . so . bla bla bla , show ended . and headed straight to Bishan Interchange with Rusyidah and Amirah sh  . Got hook up to Junction8 and then loiter around . okay , the reason why we loiter is because ,we need to spend  2-3 hours , and then head down to school for the LAST training BEFORE Mid year exam starts . so ... today we had our last training , sad seh . oh ya so , the shops were still closed , so we go0-makan at Pstamania . kecohrable-ism . pstu ... after around 2 hours there , we went to Bugis to find something tht we did not have any plans yet to find*what kind of sentence is that?*. blablabla , tired , Syidah treated us ZAmZAm . wooohoo . thx girl . 

blabla . went to training . aft training , went to Mdm hidayu's crib as her daughters were celebrating their birthdays . ahah . Cute-ness . k dah tu je . 






p/s : PARIS(love)