Ell-0w .

huhuu .freakyy emo . yes , 'vebeen emo-shit kinda mood these days . lol . nevertheless , i'm still standing strong on this thing which is 7 times smaller than the sun , called earth . hah . creepycrapps . haha . BOO !
2 days .. AND here comes where the day i was borned , 12 years ago (?) . rite .i'm still 12 . MUDE la katekann .hmm

Trying to bare with the facts these days . The fct tht these few weeks' coldcoldcold weather . The fact that i have to go to the toilet a-LOT-of-times . The fct that my birthday is coming . The fct tht i have to bare with the atmosphere of just having to sacrifice A-LOT-OF-THINGS . but nehmind . idntmind sacrificing .bleahs=P .  well actully .. i do mind . if i dont , why do i have to bare with the fct and struggling by having to bare with it ? . BUT ! sriously , i have to-dont-mind . looking on the positive side of what we labelled as "life is so complicated" . oh whatever . and i'm sighing right this second . All wanted is to make everyone happy in this world . so all we have to do is sacrifice . bleahs . thats my secret theory . now tht its not a secret anymore . (-.-)


WHT on earth am i talking about at the above paragraph ??! ugh . talking emo + shit . ignore me pls? . officially mendakk skrg . so bbl shittaye . haha . I JUST WANT EVERYBODY TO KNOW THAT i love my FRIENDS and GIRLFEESand evry special thing on global earth  , ok .. shit again . but its actually the fact , but random . ya know , i know . aahhhh ! mendak keper ? . mendak lh abeyh .

heys .

have been very busy lately - intensified angklung practices and preparations for MKIII . Preparations for nextyear's studies . ANND just recieved my exam results ! ugh . dropped . this extended my time for studies . lol .


now , talking to bbyfyqq , she's confessing and whining all along . pity CAAAT. haha . 14 november , her birthday . celebrated , HAAPPIlY . 18 november , amirah shahirah's bdae ! sry didnt give you presents . 23 nov . badrina's bdae ! hppy bdae bby . 25 nov ..... MY BDAE !!! hah . not celebrating . 

november babbys are so bonding . hahah .

thinking of forgetting someone i love . but dunnoe how . hmm . somehow i feel lonely and regret . but ... who cares ? neh . -.-

hellows .

life has been fun , everything's great . except for the unrepaired computer back there down the garage . using daddy's lap top .


Yesterday :
went to sentosa with the whole of sec ones and SL . it was awesome , espeacially the luge and skyride . haha ! balek , went to KFC and saw one cool-hot guy british, his name is thomas  . took pictures with him .. and went off . yes ! . hha


till here . not much to write . i'm off to IMM now . bybye !



muahxz ,
ZCQ

HEAVY LIPS to say i'm sorry.






Dear god , i reaally miss my bby nabilah .its been a long time since we talked to each other . ugh . how could this be ? well . i dont know . everything screwed up . gosh i miss her .

Labels: i really miss ya ., nabilah

The last exam just left few hours ago . and i 'm quite excited to welcome the holidays . Unfortunately , i didnt have a glimpse of place to show it . Celebrate the day of joy , me , together with atiqah and her usual gang , have a party , small i should say . Well , i had a huge fun just now . But i know it would be much much fun with the presence of my girlfriends there .


Today , i was all time quiet , knowing that i have nothing to say . I know being quiet and alone wasn't really a good idea cuz people would thought you are unfriendly . But i have nothiing else to do besides beiing quiet and alone .

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" Have you ever think that i am missing you ? i miss your smile , your laughter and the calming voice of yours . Have you ever think of whose shoulder i need  to cry on whenever i'm down ? Yes , i know . I know very well that i always and always hide a thousand things from you . I have a reason behind it . If this fight drags , i'm afraid that i have to lose you . Which of course , i never wanted that to happen . Do you know that every tiniest second that i live in my life these days , i think about how to get along with you back ??? Did you ever think of that ? I'm sorry if i hurt your feelings which i may really have to IN THE FIRST PLACE , but all i ever wanted for you is to get back your happiness . i'm tired of your cries and that is the reason behind all this GAME . well , i know that sounds quite bad , but again , hearing your cries makes me feel that you really have to get all your happiness back .
It crushes me alot whenever i passed by you , and i never have a chance to see your smile , neither of me having a chance to smile back at you . I really have to hold my tears whenever that feelings came . Do you think i'm happy without you by my side as the any usual days before ? NO ! of course not . Yes . Yes . Yes , my ego always rule my mind that i cant forgive you in the first place . but after awhile , i realised you are the fillings of my life . yes , you are everything . You really cared for me , which i'm really amazed by that . Actually , i appreciate that but i just dont know how to show it . You have to understand , i dont know how to show my feelings ! All this while , i just felt that i'm wearing a mask . A mask which doesnt show the true expression i'm feeling . I may look at you but didnt smile or rolled my eyes , but you may never know whats inside my heart .
Its true that some of your attitude or your actions doesnt satisfy me . But well , i have to hide it , a nd forget it aites ? but nw that we're nt in good terms , i wish to forget and hide it . i really wish to . You ARE More Than Just  A Girlfriend . "

Labels: babyy, I'm Waiting . i'm loving you .